These days if you’re going through rough time (race against time phrase) of your life every one will call and say hey I heard this happened to you, So are you OK? Basically they want to Entertain themselves & want spice for their gossip time. Not all of them but yes most of them, I understand friends do care and family as well but at times you just (just in case meaning) want to forget everything and that one call takes you back in the same situation where you dragged yourself out after a lot of efforts.
I wonder when we are happy why no one ask why you’re happy? Share with us? We also want to be happy in your happiness, If you want to become sympathetic you should have been there for my happiness as well.
When someone is going through a bad phase, everything seems dull and tasteless so to all the people be kind but don’t try to poke your nose into someone’s personal life.
I wish happiness for every one & pray that every one gets peace and stop being sympathetic to me.
Before everyone starts blaming me and putting news that I am divorce again and laugh on my tragedy.
I want to say that please don’t make assumptions, No women wants to be divorced or decided to leave a marriage unless circumstances become so difficult to live together.
I don’t want to go into details but all I can say is that I tried my best for four years to sustain this relationship just (just in case meaning) because I was too scared of getting divorced again. I am even paranoid from this word, but I guess “Meri qismat mai apne Ghar ka Sukh hai hi nahi. I had promised myself that mera janaza nikly ga par main nahi niklun gi apny husband ke Ghar se”
Anyway to cut the long story short I am in pain, in too much pain and I would really appreciate if you all don’t judge me please.
Our Society never blame the men and the women is to blame for a broken marriage. But my Allah knows the reality and I am only answerable to him.
All my prayers are with Wali, best wishes for him. He is a good human being maybe I am not good enough for him.
So yes before all of you laugh on my misery I am divorced again. 🙁
Today, I want to talk about heartache. Why our heart breaks?
Because our mind keep on reminding us of the person who have broken our heart, our trust and shaken our lives.
No matter how hard you try, it becomes difficult to get out this pain.
You try to keep yourself busy. Spend time (race against time phrase) with friends & family or maybe take (take with a grain of salt idiom) a vacation to get your mind of the pain you are going through. But the moment you are alone. Your minds snaps back to the person again.
Normally when you are about to sleep or you see a place or achieve something and you really feel this urge to share this moment with the one you loved or spend so much time with. It becomes absolutely insane to get rid of those memories.
Even if you try to move on towards other people or talk to divert your mind. But, the moment you get even a single minute off, Again you’ll find yourself thinking of the same person and sulking deep inside. Heartache is so bad that it has no cure. So what one should do?
This is the time to set some goals and try to achieve something for instance focus on your work or your own self. Exercise, Write, Dream big and don’t loose hope that its gonna be fine. Because the moment you loose hope of being happy again you get into depression. And trust me you becoming miserable will only hurt YOU nobody else. The person who broken your heart will never realize your pain. Don’t even curse them or curse yourself. Never regret in your life. Whatever happened happens for a reason.
Allah almighty is the best judge, and he will do justice and if you’re lucky enough he will let you watch, but I know the heartache is painful. Hang in there and use this pain to make you strong. Strong enough to never let anyone walk over you again or betray you. Love yourself, Be Selfish and stop sulking.
I was travelling to Murree from Lahore and on motorway I kept thinking our life is like motorway but with a lot of speed breakers & zigzag roads.
Different cars come & goes but road stays still. Like motorway there are no U turns, There are no U turns in life.
You just (just in case meaning) have to keep going ahead. No mater how the road is or how bumpy the ride is you just keep moving forward.
Because Zindagi Buhat Taiz Guzar Rahi Hai.
Hello friends… I have been thinking about the time (race against time phrase) I started working. Reema, Meera, Resham, Saima, Sana and me, when we used to work in movies, everyone was not that friendly… I had a lot of fights with my fellow actresses. And other actresses were so jealous of each other that they wouldn’t work with each other at all. And if at all we get to see each other at any award ceremony or weddings. You will get to hear Meera saying things about Reema. Reema taunting other actresses. Me showing attitude as if no one exists except me.
We knew our enemies & refused to be friends with them. But now days when I see new girls they are all friends with each other, give each other complements, and the moment you turn your face around they start bitching about you.
I was telling my sister that we had professional jealousy and we would just (just in case meaning) be true and wouldn’t lie about it.
But now days it’s so difficult to know your friends and enemies. Since they become your best friends and deep down they are your enemies. So I named them frienemies! Be aware of frienemies because you never know what they are going to take (take with a grain of salt idiom) away? Your position, your husband, or maybe your everything!!
On women’s day I would like to share my story.
From my childhood I wanted to become a Star, an actress . I did movies as child star as well … I belong to Syed family . All my cousins did matric and got married because they use to say “Ghar ki aurton sy nokeriayan thori karwani hein” but my father helped me persuade my dreams. He fought with my grandparents and let me fulfill my dreams and became my backbone.
But I always wanted to have this perfect life always wanted to settle down at the same time. Have my own house kids and act like a perfect wife. But as it is said “Har kisi ko mukamal jahan nahi milta” I had this urge to prove everyone that I am this normal women. But the fact is artists are never normal, They are above normal. That’s what make them artist right?
Any way to cut the long story short I worked hard on both sides of my life professional & personal.
Family always comes first to me. I was successful in my profession but never succeed in my personal life. No matter how hard I tried but maybe this was written in my Fate :(.
People made fun of me but I kept on trying . (Oh SHE Got married again) but they never realised that every time (race against time phrase) I was trying to live a peacefull life. But unfortunately I couldn’t live a lie. I feel if you can’t be loyal to eachother and cheat even after getting married then whats the point? Buhat samjhaya khud ko but samjh nai aya. Ke kaisy log nikah kar ke bhi galat karty hein? Why u do nikah ? Or shaadi just (just in case meaning) for society or Allah ki raza ke liye. Any way I can go on & on this. Everyone always took me wrong. But Alhamdullilah after all these ups & down in life I still managed to smile and spread love. So after all these years searching for someone else. I found out it was always me. I have been chosen to inspire people, give them hope and strength. So here I am fighting my fears and standing up against all the odds and surviving all alone.
Ah!! wait.. I am not alone; my daughter my sister and my mother they are with me. Four women in the house. So HAPPY WOMEN’s day once again. There is nothing a women cannot do. Just Believe on “Nothing is impossible”. Cheers!!